|| Semoga Tidak Kesal Di Kemudian Hari. Amin..

So, I decided to change my english class from this group to that group despite the level of hesitancy myself soared. This is rather a hard serious decision to make; the pros & cons, very kind-hearted & motherly PM Khoo, funny classmates etc

And here's the BUT;

I just need a very comfortable atmosphere, where I can just let out my innocent thoughts freely without putting myself in the depth of the inferiority. I'll be having 2 major presentations this semester & it's darn vital for me to stay focused, calm, happy, tralala-ing & be very comfortable with the whoever audience/classmates are. Plus, I really don't want to get nervous either because it'd only boost myself to speak fast like a bullet train, act all silly & sweat like a roasted chicken! Sungguh tidak cool bukan? =.='

Oh Tuhan, I think I'm just pathetic. It seems like my low self-esteem is having a negative impact on my life! Haha!

French tu pun seakan-akan meminta simpati supaya dipinda groupnya. Mungkin akan bertukar kepada group A tapi kelas pada petang hari jumaat la pulak ;(

|| *Coughs*

Testing..testing..123..ABCD

I never knew that 2 hours of browsing the net yesterday evening could actually take my voice away & turn me into a sick person! It was then followed by a combination of very bad stomachache & headache, merely made me feel like a piece of crispy plywood, waiting to be broken (?) even by just a stupid lame joke

My next class will be on 2.15 pm. To make it worse, it's been raining since Subuh & the weather's rather chilly. I bet, nobody would be pleased to have someone cranky in the class, who just couldn't stop sneezing, coughing & drinking water like every 5 minutes. Talk about the public nuisance caused by me *coughs*

I really need a short zizz now. Even seeing my own reflection on the mirrow makes me sick! Oh my self-esteem, please don't let the inferiority wins this time!

I miss the warmth of my very own bed in my pink bedroom home :(

|| She Has 2 Red Spots On Her Face (And Also 1 In Her Nose. Grr!)

Setelah diprovok & dinasihati oleh kakak, emak & CNor pada malam tadi, akhirnya terbuka jua hati saya untuk pergi pergi ke Pusat Kesihatan UiTM pada pagi ini. Luckily, it's only a bacterial infection/zit blemish, nothing serious & the doctor only gave me a tube of Benzoyl Peroxide gel & some antibiotics to be taken for a month. Rasa macam tak berbaloi tunggu hampir 1 jam & skip lecture Trust & Equity =.='

Kepada classmates yang rajin lagi prihatin iaitu Neera, Intan & Miraz, saya memerlukan khidmat tutorial free & nota-nota anda bertiga. Terima kasih kerana memberikan kerjasama. Hehe!

Please say 'hello' to my new best friends!

Emak menasihati saya supaya mengelakkan diri & menahan godaan daripada perkara-perkara berikut buat masa sekarang:

1. Ketam
2. Udang
3. Sotong
4. Sambal Belacan
5. Dan mungkin crowded places seperti malls, pasar borong, pasar malam, pasar tani etc sebab malu dengan orang ramai *coughs*

|| Typical

Talking anything random could trigger my sleep button I assume. So, it's time for 'Let's go random' again!

☂ I'm Kelantanese, a very typical one I'd name myself. Thus, don't blame me if I talk politics the way other Kelantanese people do for the gusto has always been there

☂ Most people think that I'm way too serious even for something petty. Oh come on! You haven't seen me in my worst where I couldn't just focus doing anything & would continously laughing like a donkey. It's really ugly!

☂ Men donned in black & white are smart, sexy & attractive, yes? *ahem*

☂ I don't think that my friends, K'Aina, Sheh & Yanna know how much I miss them :( Why UiTM Puncak Perdana is so far from here? Oh wait, mungkin juga patut cakap, kenapa saya sangat lambat mengambil lesen kereta? =.='

☂ I was on the phone with someone last night when suddenly I got so sad, cakap tergagap-gagap, cried, said goodbye in utter rush & hung up just like that. Haha! Blame the swinging hormone!
☂ I'm a very boring person. Thank you

☂ I bought a pillow 4 days ago. It's so bouchy, empuk, sedikit gemuk & the best part is, I got it 50% off! Well that bad part is, alarm yang diset pada pukul 6.20 am seakan-akan sudah tidak wujud lagi & telah dinasihati oleh emak supaya lebih berwaspada =.='

☂ Abah bought me a pink t-shirt from Cameron Highland. Alalala, cutenya perbuatan beliau :)

☂ Me & my room mates think wearing bedak sejuk could make us pretty (haha!). Nasib baik ada sebotol bedak sejuk yang dibeli di Mydin pada bulan Ogos 2008 masih dalam simpanan

☂ My current weight is 40kg *cries*

☂ It appears to me, the more you try to forget someone, the more he/she will haunt you i.e terjumpa di mana-mana & you start to pretend that you're in the midst of doing anything, tekan-tekan hp ke walhal check balance buat keberapa puluh kali. Haha!

☂ I bought a copy of Cleo, July issue yesterday & realized that RM5.60 paid could actually make those cosmetics companies a few bucks richer. Heh!

Mungkin perlu tidur sekarang. Goodnight to all nice people out there. Wassalam :)

Dearly missed!

|| Hari Ini Kena Marah Dengan Kakak Komander Bomba. Heh!

My very first week of school was very hectic, unexpectedly. We even received our very first mini assignment on our very first class itself, Trust & Equity, which I haven't revised yet for our next class on this monday. The lecturer, Mr John Chua's one strict man who likes to point out anyone randomly to answer his perplexed question which could shrink me to the size of red tiny ant! Sigh!

And I've made up my mind to stick to Law & Politics for my elective subject this semester, though Sales of Good Acts (SOGA) sounds very very tempting. Ada hikmah? Hope so, Amin & InsyaAllah

Nay, do you know that talking about school stuff is just plain boring? Macam la orang lain tak sekolah kan? =.='

Btw, last Wednesday keluar dengan my other group F classmates. Ingat nak beli some books kat Pekan Buku UM tapi hasil tangkapan sungguh tidak memberangsangkan, ended up us spending more on food & other unnecessary items. Hoho!

Asam Laksa Penang @ Only Mee SACC Mall, Neera belanja but too bad tak sedap :(

Muka cuak sebab takut kakak-kakak Vincci marah. Haha!

Miraz looked like a 5-year-old girl who has just got amuk sebab tak dapat doll rambut berwarna kuning ikal mayang

Bila ntah nak start baca *coughs*

P/s: My family is now on their way back from Cameron Highland. Siapa cakap jadi anak bongsu tak akan ditinggal-tinggalkan? =.='

|| It's Complicated

I don't believe in crappy superstition but seemingly in my case, good things tend to happen on Fridays!

Anyhow, what happened in AL this morning has nearly loosened my grip on something that I'm currently tightly holding on. I saw you looking at me but I pretended as if you weren't even there. You talked to me but all things that I could say were 'A'ah..A'ah..'? It finally ended with a phone call with tears oozing freely on my cheeks sambil duduk di atas tangga menghadap Teratai 4 sambil ditemani oleh suara adik/abang/kakak SUKSIS tengah berkawat di sebelah blok saya. Hoho!

Why is it so hard to pretend that I'm easy to forget? :(

|| The Mask Revealed

Some people say that I write nothing interesting but just a piece of craps of this & that but one's basic liberty of expressing her thoughts & gusto shouldn't be restrained. So, let me enjoy what I do best, talking crap

I shall admit that I'm not quite pleased with how I handle my swinging mood nowadays. I've become a pretender, wearing a fake smile around my lips just to ensure that my contempt emotion won't be that obvious for anyone

Whenever someone comes to my life, males or females, friends or ex-foes (haha!) offering any kind of positive comradeship, I'd definitely embrace it with zest & sincerity because I trully believe in the power of amendment & everybody was born with natural weaknesses, so was I. But why are there some people who couldn't let the bond stays in serene? Why do they want to jeopardize it with wrath, hatreds & sad ending? Why do they choose to break it into pieces when the foundation was built with warmth & kindness? Why do they have to pretend & act goody-goody when the truth is all they want to do is to put you in agony & misery ab initio? And how about condemning others just because something had crossed between you two but the truth is, you even don't know him/her that much?

I've been keeping it for so long. I'd encountered the same bitterness twice & now the woe is unbearable. I've just had enough of everything. The past is history but if it keeps coming to me, what should I do?

I'm no saint but I've tried to be polite by not making any judgement on this kind of people. It hurts when you know that they've done something bad to you but act all innocent & angelic as if you'd never find the truth. It hurts even more to hate anyone that I merely know because I tend to think about him/her like every hour/day, with hatred & sadness growing little by little

I know there're some of them are reading this. This is my ultima ratio for you & thank you, you :)

But the truth is, how I wish I never met or knew any of you...